term test is this week. n i was so disheartened on e very 1st day of my exams. CAD programming was like french to me all of a sudden but by God's grace i manage to complete one and a half que out of 3. but its still pretty bad. n today i had my math. i almost wanted to roll down e stairs and die. like how careless can i get? i dunnoe. i was really upset. i couldnt bring myself to be happy. sinking into depression. whahaha. till carrie talked to me. she was telling me if i ve faith in God. n true enuff i tink e problem lies in me. if i ve a faith for God n i believe i had done my best, i wont feel so depressed. yes, i noe i had done my best. its all abt having faith for God. like wad she said, im limiting God unknowingly. God loves me so much tt he wants to give me all the glory but its my lack of faith in him tt hinder tt frm coming. and because of tt i really gotta get God to strenghten my faith tt i ve for him. despite e many times i had forsaken n disappoint him in my life, he is always just so merciful to me. how can i not feel guilty abt e many times i ve not seek him? times may be bad for me but i still want to believe n trust in my awesome God. i dun wan to give up becuz of such small hinderance tt are coming my way. i wan to fight for victory..! n as for satan. God will cast him away!