this is irritatingg. im constipatingg!!!!!
i gotten lyk miss jas.tan.su.zhen's diesases
she constipates lyk real often.
during drill com camp. during my sec3 atc.
n she just told me she is constipating as well.
okiee. i shall just freaking stop e constipating thing.
alright. this is real serious. im like doubting myself all over again. i mean everything seem to be happening so rush. God called me up to be part of e core, he told me to leave GB. angela told me she's real eager to see me grow[not tt im not]. but somehow i reali hope things will go slower. i dunnoe if im REAL slow or is ppl ard me are being fast. i do wan to try. but yet i doubt myself. its such a irony. and i reali reali need to ve self-control over certain stuff. seriously, i hope some things had NEVER get to happen but it did. i really hope i do make e correct choices in certain things. cuz i reali dun wan things like "once u make a wrong choice, e rest of e things u gonna cont. doing will be wrong as well. and it will thus change e will of God" to happen. i dunnoee.
but on a lightly note. i gave freddie his new nicknamee. HAHA. i guess he likes it. but not on e other hand. but i guess i'll just stop it. he finds me irritating and is a nuisance. i'll stop before he freaks out. aniwayy. i tink im rather alil out of control recently. even ppl notice tt i treat my house as a hotel. not tt i carn find love at home u see. its just tt e love is sooooo strong tt i reali cannot take it. u can choose to say i dun wish to accept such good love. u can say as well tt im demanding. i ve smt lyk other ppl dun ve but y m i grumbling so much. yea, i tot so too. i yield for freedom. i dunnoe y. just all of a sudden, i dun wish to be under their control but look, im just tied down to it. i ve no other ways. im off to talk to God now. i guess he will tells me something tonight. i place my faith n trust in that...!