offically 1st day of school. pretty fun. i was totally lost when i was there but i think my seniors are really nice ppl. they lead me all the way till i get to W4. n i found out tt i shouldnt be there but still ppl are nice there. my class peeps are really cool as well. though they belong to e "hokkien" culture kinda ppl but they are one fun lot of ppl. so my judgement towards em earlier was wrong n im feeling real guilty abt tt. n worst. i sinned. when yesterday's sermon was on condemning and judging. i found out im like the youngest among all the girls but oh well, it doesnt really matter much. im pretty sure God bless me with this class in another way. n im pretty happy with wad i ve n where i am right now. =)

yesterday's service was really good. worship was ULTIMATE. i felt the warmth of God and i couldnt help but started crying out to God telling him how much i ve forsaken him last week and how much i ve gone through facing my dad everyday. not tt i dun wish to face him but in fact, its i dunnoe how to face him. i ve not ve a proper conversation with my dad and the thought of talking to him never cross my mind all these while. i ask God for tt particular forgiveness n hope things between dad n i will get better but today, i realise i wasnt pinning a hope for him to come home early. like why have things gone so bad, so out of hand, i really dunnoe. i wish i could just do smt out of it. i fear and respect God alot but wad im doing right now isnt something that shld be done when im following the footsteps of Jesus Christ and i truely ought to feel ashame of myself. but deep down in me, i know and im very sure i cannot let things go so easily n i find it really hard to forget those days when he persecuted me so badly. i can forgive my mum in a few days time but not him. its been 4 weeks and we did not talk to each other more den 5 sentences every day. tt's how bad things go for us. wadever it is, just keep me in prayers n i promise to do my part as well. i'll leave the rest to God. amen.

finally, thank God for granting those who went for e mission trip journey mercy. n cont. keeping them in prayers for both physical and mental strength for the strenght they need isnt any ordinary strength but its through God's power that give em the strength to do anything and everything beyond their limits and through the holy spirit that let everyone turn to God and say "LORD LORD, COME ENTER INTO MY LIFE AS I WANT TO RECIEVE UR AS MY LORD AND SAVIOUR."