char told me smt just now. n i totally stunned.
i was lost for a moment. i shut myself up for awhile
prayed abt it. thought abt it. i felt much better.
but somehow i still doubt myself.
but im so glad i ve a sister like char.
and i told her b4. once a teacher, always a teacher!
aniway. i was at carrie's hse today. i talked alot to her. and u noe wad. i feel really happy cause i can be open to her abt everything. n my everything meant really EVERYTHING. she knows how im feeling, wad i had gone through, wad im thinking and all. i just feel so real with her. i was telling her abt this person being so fake to me n how much i dun wish to talk to him. i really dun wan to, u see. but carrie did talk alot of sense into me. i cannot expect things to just change over-night. i cannot expect things to be in my way! perhaps im fake towards him as well. but y must we act like tt? i dun see e pt, u see. i was really frustrated. but like wad carrie said, maybe he isnt ready to face somethings. i cannot rush things through even though i noe im ready. i will give myself more time and cont. praying abt it.
carrie is such a paranoid queen. really. haha. but well, i guess it isnt tt complicated okie carrie chen!! think simple! life is complicated enuff. so many trails, so many things to analyse. i gotten a new book to read. joshua harris - a kiss dating goodbye. awesome! though i only read 2 chapters right now. some unresolved relationship problems seemed to be nothing now! i learnt something new.