well... not going church today again! i juz dun understand.... bro tok to mi abt the trust my parents ve within mi... he told mi.. wadever i had done in the past reali hurt my parents alot alot.... but lyk wad he sae it was the PAST! n its lyk 6mths ago! at least 90% of the trust will be kinda be grown back huhz? wadever... will be going out wif my brother to buy shoes n maybe to buy sum clothes using his money!!! hahaz.. he heaven been spending abit on mi since he ve his salary! -bleah- its nice going out w/o my parents if not dey will juz restrict both of us from buying diz n that!

tok to albert on firday? yep.. think so... he told mi how he wish tt he could be lyk young again whereby so many nice memories fill him up again..... n i was lyk "HUH" U SURE NOT? IM HAVING A DIFFICULT TIME BEING YOUNG.... telling him tt i reali reali wan to grow up faster... to ve more freedom n stuff.... he told mi being old is nva as fun as i tink.... it will be a tym where i ve more responsibility n stuffs... well, i dun mind wadever responsibility or wadever as long as i can juz gt out of diz damn hse! im happie enuff! staying wif my parents is the same as u r in jail! no freedom no long tok on the phone... no nuttin! nuttin! nuttin! pathetic! i cant even ve a longer tym toking on the phone! a short conversation of 5 mins to em is lyk the world is running out of tym... n how do dey explain youngsters hocking on the phone fer hours? crazy parents i ve... sumtimes i even wonder if dey bought mi onto the world is to make mi suffer i rather die in my mum's womb! -bleah- always comparing my brother n mi.. cuz he gt into diz engeering cuz in university? okie! i admit im not as smart n not as talented as him... but of cuz i believe i ve my own good points n my own talents! but dey dun even notice! well, sumtimes i was tinking if i got into ballet dancing when im young, will i be a great ballent dancer now? been lyking ballet since young... but dey dun gif a damn! not even trying to enroll mi into the class....forcing mi to go classes which i ve no interest! wad art class, abacus class...... idiots! juz hate em fer cuming into my life!... expect mi to cum home stright after skool everyday n begin to open up my book n make mi look as if im a nerd! guess i nod wad type of daughter dey wan... but too bad dey will nva get such a daughter! ve been saying tt im rude to em, being rebellious! i ve tried my best being a good ger! do dey mind! wadever!

i hate u ppl to bring mi down to the world.. y cant i juz ve a beta parents? living wif both of u make mi feel so sick!