now, im so vexed... i dunnoe wad im thinking. i cant even ve a mind of my own! abt attending church tml.. my dad is still hesitating... i reali ve enuff! reali enuff! wad does he reali tink? distance within God n mi is juz so far apart now... maybe i dun even reali noe who is God now! i hate my parents fer controling my life... even a sec1 gal ve much more freedom den i do! ve dey spare a feeling fer mi? onli lyk fer one mistake... gonna take control of my life forever... forever... dey can control the every movement of mine in all kind of aspects but not mi going to church... i will juz go no matter wad even if dey r going to kick mi out of the freaking hse.. cuz it NO LONGER MATTER MUCH TO MI... the whole world can dun love mi, the whole world may despice mi but God will nva nva leave mi... fer many many things i already dun take it to heart... many peer pressure around mi sumtimes reali kinda lead mi to do sum stuffs.... i dun mind em taking away stuff in my life... taking away the guy whom i once love so much... taking away sumthing whereby all teenages r having now... i dun mind.. i dun care abt peer pressure! i dun mind... dey can take everything away from mi but not God...

in my sq dere's diz sec1 gal who said tt ppl gonna beat her up cuz of sum childish thing... i mean.. i dun understand y izzit cool to ve a gang? to ve a big backing? i dunnoe... lyk wad zac sae "dey reali need God" diz ger.. she ve soo much freedom... so many things she ve tt i actually long fer but she dun even realise tt actually she is so lucky.... y cant she juz settle down n reali study hard instead of getting qin wei or which 3faith guy as her korz as i find all of em r nuttin but juz a bunch of idiots who tink dey r wad the hell cool! juz dun understand... differnet parents treat their kids differently.. fer her parents i believe tt dey reali dote on her alot alot n reali trust her... but do she even realise? i nod my parents treat mi good n dey want mi to grow up in a happie family but yet alot of things im not happie... im juz trying to please em as a daughter cuz i dun wan em to be disappointed... but wadever i nod my parents still dun ve the trust in mi lyk how dey ve last tym... all i can sae to the gal is to reali love her parents n to appreactiate em n NVA TO BETRAY THEIR TRUST... cuz she will regret regret forever.....