had my pft yesterday..... was a tough wan.... look, its been decades since i REALI exercise... well, wadever... the worst is still the running.... we shall wait n c.... keee... wad a day it went fer mi today... was so freak up! early in the morning got caught by diz old hag fer mi tucking out my blouse.... look, my blouse is lyk SOOO short... does she wan mi to tuck it in all the way whereby i totally look lyk one idiot dumb ger.... maybe tt's wad's she want... wadever.. i dun care! n my day went so sucky throughout.... nobody gifs a damn to mi, nobody sense my presence.... im so so so tired! i dun wan to be a clown entertaining ppl.... dun ever wan to be sum other ppl punching bag.... had enuff! enough! not gonne take sum things too seriously... it may matters alot to mi.. but does ppl care? NO! dey dun gif a damn as long as dey r happie wif wad dey ve.. dey dun gif a damn wif ppl around em.. even if dey gif mi a.p when i did nuttin wrong! NUTTIN WRONG! felt so much as to gif up totally.. wondering y izzit tt i always speak in a manner as in im so pathetic.... telling eveyone who read my blog who damn it pathetic i m... woo... im so dumb fer sum reasons.. regreting hard fer sum stuffs... n now.. im suffering... oh great... how great life in 2003 can be.... sux.. sucky yr sucky life... hate everything tt happened diz yr... not gonna tink abt it.. lyk i once said.. it will always be a nightmare to mi.... forever.. in mi!