suppose to get out of the hse to meet up wif jas ger n yc to play pool but too bad dad dun let mi out.. wtf.. again! im so pissed off.. told ger i cant meet em n kinda gt scold by her saying tt i LIED to her! was so vexed... cried... he was online... kinda tell [him] wad was reali is in my mind... but he didnt sae much... scolded him saying tt i reali hate [him] alot.. hated [him] for cuming into my life... hated [him] for all the trouble he had created for mi... from my parents to my friends.... he didnt sae a word diz tym... was so guilty but yet he said sumthing tt i will nva 4get - watever it is, i will always rmb tt u were once part of my life... matter i find dao sao or not.... u will always ve a place in my heart was crying so badly.. when char suddenly called mi.. i felt so saved! no longer useless.... told her abt germaine's lecture fer mi, jasmine's reaction when i said i broke up wif [him]... all diz reali hurts mi alot alot.. it make mi feel as if no longer sumone on earth cares fer mi.. cried again after putting down the phone... felt so dumb... wipe my tears n begin to believe tt dey still truely cares fer mi... everyone loves mi! weeeeeeeee! as fer [him] things r no longer e same... we r no longer together animore.. i shld stand up myself once again.....