slept at 1 last nite.. thought of many many things... from friendships to relationship... im so vexed wif diz 2 stuffs.. can anione lend mi a helping hand... im reali struggling... friends no longer wan to help nor listen to mi towards my relationship wif [him]... its not tt dey dun care but its juz tt dey dun wan to bother n dunnoe wad to do... n i felt being negleted by all of em... dey r rite... so rite.. both of us stay together is fer the sake of being together... cuz we r 1yr 7mths... im too dependent on [him]... im scard of [him]... i suit eveything to [him]... i forgive [him] too easily... break n patch.. break n patch.. break n patch fer 5 tyms... im too naive... used to think tt diz is so fun... im reali so sick so tired... can anione tell mi wad to do.. can sumone juz save mi up... maybe he still ve that very special feeling fer mi but i no longer ve it.. i dun wan to cont. to live in a world tt im always lying to myself, to [him], to my friends, to everyone... i dun wan to cont. to tink tt i still lyk [him] when the fact is tt i no longer... i ve been lying to myself mths... i nva dare to sae tt i wan a real break... out of a sudden i ve no one to lend on n everything, its so.. werid.. but maybe diz is tym when i start to grow up... i start to be independent... i start a new life....................